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Monday, June 09, 2008

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 20:33:59 GMT

w00t

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 19:38:52 GMT

tonight is the season premiere of the OC. me and chase are gonna watch it together and we're gonna go shopping after i get off work cause he needs to buy clothes. i really hope this day goes well because nothing has been going very well lately. i've just been depressed and crying all the time and it's really not fair to him and i almost just ended it so he wouldn't have to put up with me anymore. i always just feel like i'm a burden to him when i get like that. so i dunno, i hope things get better.

i should stop going on like this because it's only making me more unhappy. what can i say that makes me happy? i have a boyfriend who would watch the OC just to be with me. (this sounds really lame but i'm really excited about it and i love him so much for doing this) i think he kinda likes the show though. he loves the one where they go to vegas.

i don't know what else to say right now. i haven't posted in a long time so i guess there's a lot i have to catch up on. my next post will be recap of at least the past month or two. and i'm thinking about working on fixing the music on my site so it actually plays. i just need to update and change it up a little too. i'm a different person than i was a few months ago.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 00:08:56 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	jessica monk
Birthday:	november 9, 1987
Birthplace:	seattle, wa
Current Location:	sammamish, wa
Eye Color:	blue
Hair Color:	i don't really know
Height:	5'2"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	welsh and shit
The Shoes You Wore Today:	nss
Your Weakness:	chase and ice cream
Your Fears:	dark, spiders, everything
Your Perfect Pizza:	costco veggie pizza pretty much
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	hmm, learn to cook a few things
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	skdfjhslkjdhfkasjdhfkljhasdlkjfa
Thoughts First Waking Up:	wanna go back to bed or whatever i was dreaming about
Your Best Physical Feature:	my eyes i guess
Your Bedtime:	never!
Your Most Missed Memory:	james i guess
Pepsi or Coke:	neither
MacDonalds or Burger King:	don't eat fast food
Single or Group Dates:	depends on the group
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	i really don't know
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanillaxcore
Cappuccino or Coffee:	both
Do you Smoke:	i don't know right now
Do you Swear:	yeah
Do you Sing:	sometimes
Do you Shower Daily:	not if i wake up 5 mins before i have to leave
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	i think so
Do you belive in yourself:	not a lot
Do you get Motion Sickness:	only sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:	mildly
Are you a Health Freak:	nope
Do you get along with your Parents:	every once in a while
Do you like Thunderstorms:	noooo
Do you play an Instrument:	nope, i want to play drums
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes, dangit
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	just ODing on advil
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	i dunno what is considered a date anymore
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	maybe
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	yes
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	haha yes
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	yes
How do you want to Die:	peacefully
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	writer or a chef
What country would you most like to Visit:	india or japan
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	chase
Favourite Hair Color:	chase
Short or Long Hair:	chase
Height:	chase
Weight:	chase
Best Clothing Style:	chase (minus GW red shirt)
Number of Drugs I have taken:	weed a couple times, that's pretty much it
Number of CDs I own:	i don't really know and i don't want to count
Number of Piercings:	two, one in each ear
Number of Tattoos:	none yet, gotta wait 'til i'm 18
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	well at least three i'm sure
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 17:24:36 GMT

what can follow up cake? nothing really. been having a good past couple weeks. going out shopping today, maybe i'll buy something pretty. but first, i need to find something good to eat. i might just have to make fatty, caloric, pasta roni because it sounds so good right now. garrrr.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 01:46:20 GMT

picture time!

first things first: INGREDIENTS & MATERIALS

cake mix...

frosting that goes wonderfully with cake mix

oil, because it says i need it

eggs. there are three.

electric mixer. i'm so lazy.

heart shaped pan one

heart shaped pan two. notice, they do not match

next: BEGINNING PROCEDURE

set oven to 350°

cake mix in a bowl (picture is darker for some reason)

cake mix with water in a bowl (also a darker one)

cake mix with water and oil in a bowl

cake mix with water and oil and eggs in a bowl

time to mix it up!

ok, all done with that

poured into pan one

poured into pan two

i definitely used all the batter

stick 'em in the oven

set the timer for 35 minutes. and wait.

this is the time i spent thinking about how good my cake was going to be. and i watched some tv because waiting for cake to bake is boring.

finally: BAKING ENDS

and the timer goes BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP. until i turn it off.

take them out before they burn

beautiful

put first layer down on tray

the empty pan will need to be washed

frosting is ready. with tupperware spreader.

that just looks wonderful. time for the second layer.

BUT DISASTER STRIKES!

second layer, dropped on the floor. by me.

i tried to save it. but it was no use.

so the other heart was very sad.

THE END.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 21:26:34 GMT

i saw sin city last night. it was really really awesome and bloody and gross and i got to sit next to my two favorite people. chase and jessica! i jumped at one part and chase made fun of me. i scare pretty easily, especially at movies. anyway. i have to go to the library today and finally pay off all my overdue fines. i'm gonna listen to third eye blind all day. and then watch scrubs. and then go to bed. maybe early tonight. but i have to clean some more of my room as well. i'm so lazy. and so tired. i should sleep right now. but no, library time.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 01:41:18 GMT

so today i baked a cake. and of course photo journaled the whole ordeal. i will post pics as soon as i can.

very tired. last night i was on the phone talking to chase until 3am. we talked for almost 5 hours. this whole past week i don't think i've gone to bed before 4am. and it's just insane. i promise i will get some sleep tonight. i definitely will try. but i'm gonna have to do something about all the clothes that are on my bed right now. i need to wash some of them. well probably most of them. they've all been sitting on my floor for a while. whatever. i'm gonna take a shower and go see jessica at work later and tell her about my cake making adventure.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 23:59:37 GMT

well things just got worse. last night reese told jessica that he was breaking off what little they had. so i called her and she was just crying and didn't want to talk about it. so i just talked to him and heard his whole side of the story and i don't really know what to think. it seems like it's as much her fault as it is his. so later she got back online and we talked for a long time and she seemed a little better but this morning she was back to crying again and i didn't know what to say. i'm terrible at making people feel better. later she seemed better again and kept saying that she was over it and that she was just gonna move onto nate cause he likes her and she likes him. if she does, i hope she won't do it just because she thinks she needs someone right now. i don't know if she's even ever gonna be able to make up her mind about it. i don't know if she's gonna be able to just let reese go. probably not.

i'm tired. nap time.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 04:51:17 GMT

well, i've got nothing to do tonight. i should go to sleep sometime since i've been getting like not much sleep at all. and i have to get up at 7 again. i'm kind of hungry. i was thinking about going to qfc and buying some ice cream and eating it all tonight. but i'm waiting for jessica to get online since she said she was going to. but she's probably just going to sleep or something. she told me she wanted to hang out tonight then two minutes later she's like "wait maybe i'll just go home and sleep" and i'm like ok... cause that just leaves me with jack shit to do. whatever. ok she's online now so i'm gonna go talk to her.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 14:04:53 GMT

ok so bowling was pretty great. me, jessica, brian, bryan, chase, reese, allison, derick, and jeff! oh i heart jeff. and chase too! i was really, really tired at the beginning but then i wasn't so tired by the end. we had to leave early though cause reese had to be home before 1am except he didn't tell us that until we were already there and if i would have known that i would have driven so i could stay later. but anyway, he drove me and jessica and chase back to qfc and we decided to go to denny's. i had to be up in about 6 hours so i of course got coffee so i couldn't sleep for a while when i got home. but denny's was awesome. we saw jenni! and i like freaked out cause i hadn't seen her in so long. and i was drinking a lot of coffee too... yeah, so it was awesome until chase mentioned to jessica that reese was awake the whole night before at derick's and she said a bunch of shit that she didn't really want him to hear. mostly like telling everybody else who didn't already know about what was going on with them. so she was just freaking out about that. chase paid for us all and i wanted to hug him but i didn't. and i wanted him to be online when he got home and he was for like two seconds but then he just signed off again so i didn't get to tell him thanks. maybe i'll talk to him later today cause i know he has the day off work. he invited all of us over to his house this friday and i really wanna go but i think it's gonna be weird. i mean, they're all gonna be getting drunk again and i just don't want to. whatever. i have to work today, it's gonna suck so bad. closing. i haven't closed in over two weeks. i kinda forgot how. plus, i'm just really tired still. i get to work with lindsay though! i'm so excited. i've barely seen her at all these past two weeks. i've been not sleeping and opening. i'm gonna get a raise though. i'll be making $7.50! great... i fucking hate subway. everytime i'm there i'm so close to quitting. i just get so fucking pissed off at everyone there and i can't take much more of it i don't think. wednesday and friday i think i work with leo, which i know is going to be awkward. last time i saw him he asked me out and i said no. i've pretty much avoided him since then. i mean, wtf? fucking drug addict. what would make him think i would wanna go out with him? i don't even think he's that attractive. anyway, i'm gonna have some breakfast i think. then i have to go get gas cause i'm running on empty right now. i have three hours to kill until i have to pick my sister up from school. dunno what i'm gonna do. maybe go out and do a little shopping. maybe i'll take sarah shopping if she wakes up. i wonder if she still has her old navy gift card from x-mas. that girl never buys new clothes. i don't understand it. i hate the fact that since i have a job i pretty much pay for everything of mine and my parents buy my sisters a lot more than they buy me. i mean, my dad bought my sister an ipod for no reason... wtf is that? anyway, i'm really hungry. listening to the schoolyard heroes and jamming. gonna make french toast? no, probably not.